Okay, so it's gorgeous, things are a bit more settled today, and Mikey sent me porn videos this morning. He's such a good egg. Always thinking of his older, evil, bitter-er sister.
Had a productive meeting with my broker today - now, I have to have more conversations. Taking a loan application tonight, and it seems that the land deal has come back to life. That means I have to wrestle the bank down to the floor and find out where my damned underwriting approval is.
Worked with Lisa for HOURS today - on deep stuff. Urg. I have homework to do today, that's for sure.
One of the things I worked on involves having men in my life who are lillies of the field. And how that just isn't working for me anymore.
Interestingly enough, I asked Nick if he'd like to do anything tonight. He didn't answer, which is Nick code for "no, but I don't want to say it." It's not just Nick code, it's pretty much human code. So, asked if he had other plans already, and he said that he did not. Then, I asked if he was trying to keep his options open, and he said that he was.
Doesn't that mean that he's looking for someone and something better to do than spend time with me? So, I just walked the dogs without saying anything.
I came back in, fixed a drink and he asked if I had something in mind for tonight. I said, "yes, I do." He asked what that was.
So, now I rather feel like I get to bid with my offer of food or entertainment. If it's suitable and acceptable AND there is no better, higher offer then I am graced with his company. In between cell phone calls, of course.
Employing his own devices, I just didn't answer and came back in here. Fuck that - either I'm good enough to spend time with or I'm not. I'm not a fucking ATM machine.
Taking stock in this situation, I'm supporting him, giving him a place to stay, listening to four to six hours of Carlos drivel a day and picking up after him. Why did I do this again? He doesn't want to hear about what I think or am feeling, he doesn't want to spend time with me unless it's in a herd of his bar friends, and he doesn't want to be with me unless I'm feeding him and there's no higher, better offer. He doesn't want any kind of physical relationship with me, and he's unwilling to do anything that he says he'll do to help me keep my life running. Well, he'll SAY he will, and sometimes he'll pick up a tool or something, but for the most part, he's off to the next hanging out session with his other Houston friends and making excuses for why it will get done the next day.
This boy has a full time job arguing with Carlos. Too bad it doesn't pay worth shit. He needs to just move back up there to CMH and they can beat the shit out of each other on a daily basis. As long as I no longer have to pay for it.
On to other subjects.
Tonight, I have more DVD watching to do - I got two in the mail from Netflix and have the other two I bought last night. Have a client coming around 7:00 to do a real estate contract and sign loan application paperwork. Seeing Tom around 11:00 tonight. I haven't seen him since before Halloween, I think.
Tomorrow, I'm going to do the stereo work on Ruby myself, then I'm going to start working on listing all this shit on eBay myself. Clearly, that's the only way anything is getting done. I've already had to farm out the tax receipt work, and the Fabulair data mining tasks.
High on the list of the worst money I've ever spent ..
Wait, I was supposed to change the subject.
Michael (formerly known as the hooker) was SO nice to me this morning. We actually had a very nice conversation that included him being flirtatious. And, he didn't seem to have anything that he WANTED. Weird.
He has nothing to do for Thanksgiving, so I may go pick him up and carry him to Mikey's and feed him. We'll just see.
Uncle Kelly is having his Christmas party in Dallas on the 10th. How can I be there for said party and still make it back for church by 10:00 on Sunday?
I want to order a new Phaeton. Hm.
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