Ahhhhh .. Angel: Season Four. I only have disc one, so I cannot do what I wish to, and watch the WHOLE THING tonight. I have to save two episodes for TOMORROW night. I am functioning on approximately three hours of sleep today, and I've been mostly on the go all day. So, the little man in my brain is shutting down the lights, and I don't quite know how profound I can be tonight.

Church tomorrow morning, and then I have to crank on the work all afternoon. A client's financial records to organize, put in file folders, enter into QuickBooks and then have them ready for him to pick up.

Had a little electronic discussion with a gay lad in Atlanta tonight. He started things off by telling me he thought that Hillary Clinton was a communist. Ugh. Of course, that required dissection. While he did not give much ground, he was required to admit that none of Mrs. Clinton's positions or advocations were inherently Communist.

THEN, he started in on Ralph Nader. Hello? Irrelevant? Can you SPELL "who cares?" Ralph Nader is a Communist.

No, he's not.

Yes, he is. He endorses the Green Party platform, which is Communist.

No, he doesn't. He sought their nomination as their candidate, as they were on the ballot in all 50 states. He was not selected.

Yes, he did.

No, he didn't.

So, you're saying that Ralph Nader changed his politics?

No, I am not.

Well, you just said that he was no longer supporting the Green party platform.

No, I said he was never an endorser of the 2004 Green party platform.

Whence, much cutting and pasting of elements of the 2004 Green party platform ensued.

Yes, I admit that the platform of the Green party is Communistic. However, Ralph Nader never adopted those positions. Here, please look at the Nader website (hyperlink supplied.)

Apparently, that was too challenging. Back we go to the Green party website.

So, I said "Nader was the Green Party candidate in 2000. He was not in 2004. Are you speaking about the platform of the Green Party in 2000, or are you attributing the platform of the Green party in 2004 to Nader's campaign in 2000? The Green party has taken a significant shift to the left since 2000."

Much time passed.

Then, "Okay, so you're right, the 2000 Green party platform did not endorse the positions that I was speaking of."

Then, he started back at it.

So, I said "Trying to discuss facts with someone who takes their information from Fox News is like trying to discuss religion with a Mormon. It's best to smile, nod and move on."

Oh, my. Talk about gas on the fire.

Tirade, tirade, tirade.

I just kept answering "smile and nod."

Then, I took him off my "buddy" list. I mean, come ON. A gay person taking his information from Fox News and Rush Limbaugh? Why not just be Jewish, and write press releases for Joseph Goebbels?

Anyway. I don't think that Kerry is going to win this, anyway. He's allowed the Bush campaign to define him, and he isn't creating a vision for undecided voters to look into as they make up their minds. He isn't motivating. The new, happy, all pablum Democratic party (Republican lite) just isn't anything different than what the Republicans offer. Regardless of what Hannity says.

And, I think that Geo. II will completely pander to the radical right .. to get elected. Once he's re-elected, he's going to go back to status quo ante and the right is going to be REALLY pissed. Not that it will count for anything, but they're going to be really tweaked when they find out that they were used and abused.

Ah, well.

I need to take these mutts outside, and get to bed. More foundational meditation is on tonight's schedule. God, I hope I get through all this crap soon.

Ugh. Michael woke me up when he came in last night, and then I couldn't go back to sleep to save my life.

I guess it was all for a purpose; I'm trying to uncover the deeply held belief structures that are relevant in my life right now, and last night I was meditating to work on money issues. I got a lot of revelation on it, and that's all well and good, but now what?

Yikes.

I've pretty much decided that I'm done with having Michael stay here when he's in town. I just don't find that it brings anything of value to me, and it's just more work.

Have I mentioned that the kitchen is REALLY clean? It's making me very happy.

I've already started knocking out work this morning, which is helpful. The financial pressure this month is very serious, and I'm working to get everything under control by Monday.

I just see on my Netflix account that Angel Season 4 is shipping today! YAY! That makes me SO happy. I watched "Red Dirt" last night - it started off slowly, and built up into this incredible, non-sexual love story. As the movie was winding down, the two characters that are in love just SPLIT - without even saying good bye. It was heart breaking! Then, the one guy comes BACK several weeks later - and they finally confess to one another that they're helplessly in love. And, the one guy gets in his truck and LEAVES! Yeek! The one left behind resolves himself to stay in his tiny Mississippi town and take care of his mother, who's insane! GREAT movie.

I have to jump into the shower pretty soon, I have the LSAT student over at 10:30, and then lunch with Jeffrey. I'm cruising through this quality control manual. This is good!

So, the kitchen is CLEAN. I finally moved some cabinet stuff around that has bugged me for, oh, years. Of course, in the process, I broke a Pyrex cake pan, and the Pyrex lid to a casserole dish. PLEH. But, I have enough Pyrex to open a bakery, so what's the difference? Everything is all clean and sparkly up above the cabinets, which is such a great feeling. I may be dreaming, but I think it smells better in here.

Of course, Mikey would point out that the dogs still need grooming, but ..

Michael showed up today; a day early. He looks GREAT! Wow. He's working in Galveston this weekend. He got here, flopped down on the bed in the guest room here (I was, of course, tethered to my computer.) I told him about his co-worker the Colt model having stayed here .. he asks if I've been cheating on him..

No, really.

So, we're talking about this and that. And, I mentioned that I had hung out with my friend Jeff the other night. And, he asks me again if I've been cheating on him..

No, REALLY.

Okay, so now, he flops down on the sofa, and I'm cleaning the kitchen some more. So, I asked if his wife was still moving to Conroe with their kids, and he says, yes, at the end of March. And I asked whether he was moving in with them there.

He says, no, he's going to try not to. So, I asked where he was going to move.

He said he didn't know .. he'd just move in here.

With me.

No, REALLY!

I told him that there was no room in here for all of his stuff.

He laughed.

I guess today should be called "What a difference a day makes." Spent some time meditating this morning, and accomplished a huge breakthrough in anxiety levels. It's just such a relief.

Got a bunch of projects cranked out today, and then, took a wild hair and started cleaning up the top of the kitchen cabinets. Took everything down, cleaned everything, the dishwasher is running on all the stuff that I couldn't get clean enough, and hopefully, the whole kitchen will SMELL better soon. Ugh. It's amazing how much DIRT gets all over everything in a short time in this place.

It's the dogs. Got to be. Uh-huh.

This evening, more projects, have to finish watching a movie I started several days ago .. tomorrow is packed with different appointments, which will make it difficult to accomplish anything specific.

Tonight should have been a Travis night. However ..

Found a tranny for a 1973 Imperial today online. YAY! It's pretty cheap, too.

Ugh .. this review of issues that I had fooled myself into thinking were "handled" is quite the mental and emotional load. Yikes.

Dinner with a client/friend tonight. He's been giving me guilt for months that I don't just "stop in" when I'm down teaching or at church. I cannot seem to get him to understand that I never "stop in" anywhere. I think it's rude.

A conversation between an anonymous friend and me today .. brought about by viewing this

-----Original Message-----
From: Douglas
Sent: Tuesday, September 14, 2004 11:31 AM
To: L
Subject: RE: I think you should watch this video .. watch the WHOLE thing, and then think about it.

Your last two questions are those that are the most disturbing ..

From: L
Sent: Tuesday, September 14, 2004 9:56 AM
To: Douglas
Subject: RE: I think you should watch this video .. watch the WHOLE thing, and then think about it.

You know, I’m not an engineer but I agree with everything you’ve said. And I recall thinking at the time that there was ABSOLUTELY no damage OUTSIDE the Pentagon. And even with all the damage, it didn’t seem to be large enough for a plane that big to have made. It’s just mind-boggling that someone planned this whole event – but who?

And, yes, what DID happen to the 757? Remember, soon-to-be-ex Solicitor General Ted Olsen’s wife, Barbara – the right-wing ex-prosecutor – was on that plane and made a call to him – at least allegedly she did – saying they had been hijacked. Not to mention, Doug, that Dulles is so close to the Pentagon that unless it flew considerably AWAY from Washington it couldn’t have gained much height or speed. And yet it went off the radar 45 minutes earlier? How can that be? All the reports said the plane simply got in the air and immediately turned toward, presumably, the White House and the Capitol.

As much as I despise George W. Bush and all he stands for, I can’t fathom – intelligently or reasonably – that as vile as he and his minions are they could have come up with something as horrible as this. So then I ask WHO and WHY?



-----Original Message-----
From: Douglas
Sent: Tuesday, September 14, 2004 9:48 AM
To: L
Subject: RE: I think you should watch this video .. watch the WHOLE thing, and then think about it.

I think that a 757 did NOT hit the Pentagon. I have always thought that it did not. Being a complete airliner junkie, I have thought since 9/11/01 that something was WRONG.

1. a 757 could not hit the building that low to the ground without first having had some of its low-hanging pieces (engines, for instance) drag into the ground. The dynamics of the "hit" don't make sense.

2. a 757 can't FLY 530 miles an hour that close to the ground. It would start coming apart in mid-air from structural damage

3. There were no "bones" of a dead 757 outside the Pentagon - the engines, for instance, would have been too dense to punch through the outside wall, OR the hole would have been much larger

4. The hole was too round, and extends too far into the building to have been made by a 757 - only something very dense, moving very fast, with a lot of explosive energy could have created that hole

5. They never found the "black boxes" from the 757 (the found them for the 767s that hit the WTC buildings)

Now, this leads to disturbing questions:

· What did happen to the AA 757 and the people on it?

· Why are we being told something other than the truth?

· Did the terrorists get their hands on something like a cruise missile?

Or the biggest question - was the whole thing a scam?

We have already talked about that the WTC buildings' collapse doesn't make common sense

· The WTC towers clearly did not have heat-related structural damage sufficient to cause a collapse of the central cores just minutes before the collapse, as evidenced by the firefighters' radio communications as they were going UP the stairwells in the central cores above the 30th floors right before the collapse

· WTC 7 (the hotel) was neither hit, on fire nor damaged other than superficially, and it spontaneously collapsed into its foundations

· The WTC towers' solid steel "ribs" that were driven deep into the granite by pile drivers were destroyed .. how was that possible?

· In 1991, the WTC survived an underground explosion of tons of TNT, calculated to damage the "ribs" and bring the buildings down. The structures survived with minimal damage. How can we assert that airplanes hitting above the 40th floor caused the buildings to totally collapse structurally?

· WTC 2 - the first building to collapse - burned less than an hour, and the airplane clearly hit the building at an angle to the corner - most of the destructive force AND the fuel blew out through the other side of the building. How, then, did the building collapse first with less damage and less time for the building to be damaged than WTC 1?

Given that the physical structure damage and the lack of airplane parts outside the Pentagon, we can only conclude that we're not being told the truth. Since we're not being told the truth about two different events in two different parts of the country, it seems only logical that we are being lied to in an organized and pre-arranged fashion.

It's a scam.

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From: L
Sent: Tuesday, September 14, 2004 8:45 AM
To: douglas
Subject: RE: I think you should watch this video .. watch the WHOLE thing, and then think about it.

Hmmm. That was very thought provoking. I need to watch it again because a telephone call interrupted me. What do you think about this?

-----Original Message-----
From: Douglas
Sent: Friday, September 10, 2004 10:59 PM
To: drdivo
Subject: I think you should watch this video .. watch the WHOLE thing, and then think about it.



I've been saying this for nearly three years. If you want to tell me I'm nuts afterward, go for it. But only after you've watched the WHOLE thing and taken in the information. (Some of you won't need to be so open minded)

Another picture of Brian 

Here's a picture of Brian. 

Tuesday after lunch ..

I've been unsettled since last night. Got some of the things resolved for myself today, but seeing Brian last night was ... just hurtful and weird. It's clear he's either escorting or "kept," but, his distant friendliness was just such a rejection, I guess.

Lance came over this morning and tried to help me configure my POS HP printer to fax a document off the hard drive. He was also stymied. I just need to replace this printer sometime soon.

Board meeting tonight is cancelled, which is good.

Have to get to drafting this quality management document for a mortgage company. Then, help Lance with a deal of his. After that, I'm pretty much out of things to work on. It will be cool and weird at the same time. I'm hoping to do some book keeping for a client, but he hasn't said yes for sure yet.

This week's church subject is "There is no spoon." We'll be talking about that nothing is real to spirit than thought. So, I'm spending time thinking about that and trying to structure our "lesson" for Sunday.

Saw "Suspect Zero" last night with Nicole. It was very interesting, a little disturbing. It was nice to get out with her for a while. I'm going over to see her and Nancy tonight.

I have so much to process, and I just feel like mentally "checking out" rather than deal with it. I think I'll watch this movie, and then see if I'm ready to start synthesizing.