At least on the surface of it.

I haven't paid rent yet this month. I asked UHCL if they would please put my check request at the head of the list so I could get paid this week. I have a client that I'm doing some accounting work for, from whom I expect to be paid on Saturday. I was actually expecting to get paid from him on Monday or Tuesday, and it seems that he took a trip out of town until Friday.

And, Scott in Austin owes me $525.00.

So.

Scott has decided that I have not helped him, and that I completed none of the projects that he asked for help with. Of course, that's simply not true. I completed everything for him. He's upset because he owes taxes to the IRS plus penalties for late filing. Of course, none of that had anything to do with me. He says he has no idea where he stands with anything .. etc. So, he's not going to pay me.

UHCL promised me that they had put my invoice in, but I just called accounting, and they have nothing in the system. Strangely, there is nothing in the system for the check that they just cut me a few weeks back, either. So, I don't know whether I am being lied to, as before, or whether ..

I can't get clarity on my current issue at hand (the tendency to put off doing work until it's just about due .. Mr. Procrastinate) I don't do anything that I don't HAVE to do, such as filing, marketing or whatever, unless something just snaps inside and I get it all done. Task lists and calendaring just don't matter a whit.

I have to have a breakthrough here. And I have to have it damned fast.

Okay, a nice sunny morning. I have confirmed (I think) that my UHCL check is being cut tomorrow .. of course, she was just nasty about that. The last time, I just took her word at it from an email, and it took them five more weeks. So, sorry, honey, that I irritated you, but you LIED to me last time, and then your boss lied to me and ..

So, deal.

Now, I have to get someone else to fly right. He's all cranky with me because he's having some issues with his own behavior, and he's trying to blame me, just because I've helped him with the paperwork.

No more accepting blame on the part of people who don't handle their own business.

I fell in a parking lot today, and although I didn't hurt myself, I got coated in mud. YUCK.

I found some uncashed checks in my client's paperwork .. and in checking them out, learned that WaMu no longer does merchant check verification. Weird.

Okay, I'm going to shower and then get back to creating file folders.

It just started raining, which explains my blistering headache. Well, that, and the self-induced stress load.

I hope to have some clarity tonight. I think I've sufficiently focused on this (really big) issue that confronts me. Confronts, boxes in, limits, defines ..

Got my Animated Animations Duck Dodgers thing back today. It seems that it, alone among all of the Warner Brothers art, is not sold out.

I need to sleep now. I was up, as you know, until very late, entertaining self-focused straight men who are flexible enough to get their attention where they can find it.

Well, here we are. It's Tuesday, and I'm clear what the personal issue is, I just don't have the clarity that I need yet.

And I need it, badly.

I have the LSAT student coming over today .. in an hour.

time shifts

Okay, now. He's due here now. I have a bed full of paperwork to data enter today, and .. not much else. Board meeting tonight. I don't know why.

Had the masseur Michael over last night. He was .. oh, two hours late in getting here. Then, he flopped around on the sofa for three hours, drinking wine, and talking about things. He did the usual grabbing on his crotch (for three hours? I'm surprised it's not chafed) and playing with his flat stomach, and talking about how his girlfriend isn't sexually satisfying.

UGH.

So, I think he's like Vlad from "Camp." Seeking validation, but nothing more that involves a commitment. Wants to soak up as much validation as possible. Oh, and as he was trotting out the door, he tells me (again) that he doesn't have much going on today, and I should call him .. 'cause he loves being here with me.

So, I haven't had enough sleep. I'm cranky. E ripped me a new one for entertaining a sexually confused creature last night from 2:30 to 3:00. And, I have gotten NO CLARITY on my issue at hand.

Bleh.

Got a lot of fabulairing done yesterday, now I just need to manifest the money to buy all the samples and initial inventory. And pay E to get the website deployed. And, and, and.

Issues again.

So, I'll spend the afternoon going through all of this paperwork, and trying to figure out how to enter closed transactions into QuickBooks without screwing up the balances. Fun, huh?

Sign the petition

If it angers you that the GOP let the assault weapon ban expire, do something about it.

Afternoon ..

Well, interesting. I've been putting off doing this accounting job for a few days, now the client is out of the office until Friday. Uh, hello? Perhaps if I'd kept my service promise, I'd be paid and wouldn't have to worry about .. well, everything.

And, my Austin client is ducking me. Of course, he owes me money..

I skipped class tonight. I have to run by Nicole's and pick up some paperwork, and then Michael the Masseur may stop by around 9:00. I have tomorrow to clear through work and then .. what? I don't know. I just don't know what I'm going to do.

It's like .. I need someone to come in tomorrow with a business plan that needs writing, and ready to pay the retainer.

I probably should have gone to class tonight. I'd have probably gotten something great out of it. I just didn't feel like it. Bleh.

I have to make the bed (laundered the sheets) and such.