DJHJD

DJHJD

Saturday, January 27, 2007

Bitch, bitch, bitch

What is it with me making agreements that are broken? I guess, more importantly, why is it that I keep seeking out people to participate? Why do I just not push forward alone, and make it happen?

I don't give many chances - when someone's agreed to participate with me, and then chooses more interesting plans without giving even lip service to the broken engagement, I just refuse to make further plans with them. And, I tell him straight to their face that I won't make further arrangements because they don't keep their agreements.

I'm wrestling with the lack of clarity in determining what is intuition, and what is expecting a repetition of previous events. Where is the line between my own thoughts creating an environment and looking outside, seeing that it's overcast, there's water dripping from the roof, and puddles outside and concluding that it's raining?

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